In this picture, I was terrified. High on attention, half drunk, adrenaline pumping, mind racing, I was being pulled in so many different directions. Integrity wasn’t my priority. I sacrificed my reputation for a short-lived, 15-minute high which wasn’t worth the pain and anguish. I was an alcoholic and addict whose moral principles were onContinue reading “A Sobering Situation”
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Hangover or Withdrawal?
On this morning, I was living in Queens and had to be in downtown Manhattan at 10:15am. I woke up at 10am in a panic. The room was spinning, my mind fuzzy, thoughts incoherent. I was shaky, cold, sweaty and my head pulsated. My makeup was still painted on my face from the night before.Continue reading “Hangover or Withdrawal?”
Is it just me? Or…
Girls: Do you ever watch reality TV shows and wonder how these women do a million things in one day in full glam and a decent attitude? Today I have zero energy. The thought of layering my face with powder and cream is daunting. I don’t even feel like taking the dog out to pee.Continue reading “Is it just me? Or…”
The Hundred Pound Food Addict.
Obsession is the hallmark of addiction. Whether it’s food, drugs, or sex, my brain becomes fixated on feelings of pleasure that the substance or behavior elicits. It’s a process that normal people will never comprehend. The anticipation and the build-up become stimulating and irresistible; it’s a part of the high. Just thinking about food orContinue reading “The Hundred Pound Food Addict.”
An alcoholic bartender is like a crack addict selling crack.
I had graduated from the University of Florida in the spring of 2012 and moved to the Big Apple that summer. I had about $200 to my name so my options were limited regarding my living situation. This is where Craigslist came in handy. Yes, every mom’s worst nightmare, sorry mom. I found some guyContinue reading “An alcoholic bartender is like a crack addict selling crack.”